My least favorite word

Defer (verb):┬áput off (an action or event) to a later time; postpone. Actually the worst word. I want definite answers. Don’t be indecisive. Just tell me. And then when you decide to be like “uhhh maybe later,” tell me why. Don’t just leave, I need to know like you just can’t do that. Now like […]

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In the face of failure, I beg you don’t back down. It sucks. It hurts. Feels like you can’t do anything about it. And my failures may never relate to yours, and yours never to mine, but the feeling of emptiness and sadness is universal. But I beg you don’t give up. In the face […]

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Waiting Room

Tick, tock. I look at the clock. It’s like time’s frozen, why did it stop? My legs are shaking, arms are aching, if I get up I feel like ground will start breaking. Got nothing to lose, at the same time I don’t want to be bruised, by the ones who did better than me […]

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I really wanted to avoid writing this blog post because I know it’s kind of selfish and stupid. But for the first time in my life I’ve actually felt really anxious. Basically, I have a college decision coming in that I’ve really been looking forward to. And I know it’s kind of stupid to be […]

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I just recently figured out that it isn’t astronomy that I am super interested in, rather cosmology. The difference is one is the study of the stars while the other is the study of the universe. I can argue that I haven’t been given the resources yet to study astronomy, but then others could say […]

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I’ve just been really happy. It’s weird. Everything is just good. All smiles all around. And I attribute it to the people around me. I am so grateful. I know I am late for thanksgiving, but I am so thankful. I have a loving family, great friends, awesome teachers, just people who care all around […]

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At a point in my life I didn’t know how to make meaningful conversation with anyone. So when I started getting added to group chats were I didn’t know anyone, I put on a mask of someone who just didn’t care about any situation. Or the common phrase now would be to act salty. It […]

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I know I am going to be so much happier after high school. Not to say I am not happy now, but like I know without a doubt in my mind I will be happier after high school. I absolutely cannot stand the fact that I feel like I am being babysat 7 hours a […]

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So like I procrastinated all my AP Psych notes so here I am at 12:30 A.M., but in the midst of my studying I hit a soundtrack that was played in a video game I used to play a lot as a kid. And I had to take a break from my note taking and […]

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